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A Think Week!
Last week I had some interesting things happen consecutively. SO many things had aligned, then started moving, but everything started to shift almost as soon as they had began. I was leaning into this, feeling somewhat comfortable with the transition & knowing it was all happening for my greater good. But as the third & fourth thing in my life started to shift & become disjointed, I felt like the foundation I had established was crumbling around me! I had an existential crisis & an emotional breakdown & was a pretty hot mess! (My boyfriend walked in right after the hurricane stopped! Poor guy! Love ya babe!)
As soon as the swell started within me I called my boyfriend to try to talk it out & through me….but that didn’t seem to work. As soon as I hung up with him I called my mom. As soon as I dialed her number I was in tears, bawling, feeling lost, lonely & needing some comfort….because mom’s are usually the best remedy. I needed to be reminded of who I was, why I was here & what my purpose was through the eyes & mouth of someone other than myself that loved me. I needed some reaffirmation & loving encouragement that I wasn’t just living to live…but that I was truly living my purpose, my calling, my dream! 
The “Mom Call” did the trick! I was bawling & driving, 2 things that shouldn’t be done at the same time! But I made it home safe & then went to my room & bawled some more! I hadn’t cried like that in awhile! Talk about needing a release…sheeesh! So some advice I needed to hear was that I needed to take a break. I needed to come back to myself again. I didn’t realize how I had been neglecting my “ME” time. I’ve been working so hard on moving my business forward, on creating new lines, on selling my work, on showing my work, on updating my website, on starting to teach again, etc…you name it I was doing it! But being in a new relationship, being hurt & not being able to run on a daily basis, being in high production mode, being the owner & only designer in my business & reinstating my yoga teaching was compounding on itself & I wasn’t releasing, grounding &/or connecting to myself & nature everyday!!! I was too focused on paying my bills, making my rent & financial security. No wonder I was so emotional & a ticking time bomb! 
So I set the intention to take this week off. This has proven to be so unbelievably hard it’s incredible!!! In taking time away from work, I’ve come back to me, but I’ve also had a clarity in how much I LOVE what I do! I never thought it’d be so hard not to jump on my website or etsy or update & add new photos of new merchandise. I never thought it’d take so much effort to NOT go to my studio. It’s amazing when we limit ourselves of something, how much more we want it! I had become lost in what I do for a living as opposed to who I am as a whole.
And this morning I read some of the greatest short articles that synchronistically aligned with where I’m at right now & how reaffirming it is to take a break! The first is
http://99u.com/workbook/23511/why-you-need-a-think-week-like-bill-gates
The second is
http://99u.com/workbook/23763/why-taking-a-break-leads-to-breakthroughs
Not only have I been percolating with new ideas within these 3 days off but my mind, body & soul are abuzz with electricity & anticipation to work again! Disconnection for the sake of reconnection, for clarity & for new energy has been such a blessing! Thank you Mama for your unending love, support & advice. I’m so grateful for you & Love you so SO much! And Thank You Ross for your love & support & allowing me the space to be an emotional hurricane while you stay rooted, strong & steady & not judging me…I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!!
I’m the biggest advocate for balance & finding it everyday is definitely a practice in itself. I guess it’s fitting that one of the new lines I’m about to launch in April is The Balance line. No coincidence…just synchronistic. Glad I’m working through it, finding it & sharing it with the world. It is my wish that this helps you, whomever you are, think about taking time for yourself if you’re not doing so already. :) 
My think week is about half way through. Looking forward to what else will unfold in the next few days! To our “ME” time….Love & Light!

A Think Week!

Last week I had some interesting things happen consecutively. SO many things had aligned, then started moving, but everything started to shift almost as soon as they had began. I was leaning into this, feeling somewhat comfortable with the transition & knowing it was all happening for my greater good. But as the third & fourth thing in my life started to shift & become disjointed, I felt like the foundation I had established was crumbling around me! I had an existential crisis & an emotional breakdown & was a pretty hot mess! (My boyfriend walked in right after the hurricane stopped! Poor guy! Love ya babe!)

As soon as the swell started within me I called my boyfriend to try to talk it out & through me….but that didn’t seem to work. As soon as I hung up with him I called my mom. As soon as I dialed her number I was in tears, bawling, feeling lost, lonely & needing some comfort….because mom’s are usually the best remedy. I needed to be reminded of who I was, why I was here & what my purpose was through the eyes & mouth of someone other than myself that loved me. I needed some reaffirmation & loving encouragement that I wasn’t just living to live…but that I was truly living my purpose, my calling, my dream! 

The “Mom Call” did the trick! I was bawling & driving, 2 things that shouldn’t be done at the same time! But I made it home safe & then went to my room & bawled some more! I hadn’t cried like that in awhile! Talk about needing a release…sheeesh! So some advice I needed to hear was that I needed to take a break. I needed to come back to myself again. I didn’t realize how I had been neglecting my “ME” time. I’ve been working so hard on moving my business forward, on creating new lines, on selling my work, on showing my work, on updating my website, on starting to teach again, etc…you name it I was doing it! But being in a new relationship, being hurt & not being able to run on a daily basis, being in high production mode, being the owner & only designer in my business & reinstating my yoga teaching was compounding on itself & I wasn’t releasing, grounding &/or connecting to myself & nature everyday!!! I was too focused on paying my bills, making my rent & financial security. No wonder I was so emotional & a ticking time bomb! 

So I set the intention to take this week off. This has proven to be so unbelievably hard it’s incredible!!! In taking time away from work, I’ve come back to me, but I’ve also had a clarity in how much I LOVE what I do! I never thought it’d be so hard not to jump on my website or etsy or update & add new photos of new merchandise. I never thought it’d take so much effort to NOT go to my studio. It’s amazing when we limit ourselves of something, how much more we want it! I had become lost in what I do for a living as opposed to who I am as a whole.

And this morning I read some of the greatest short articles that synchronistically aligned with where I’m at right now & how reaffirming it is to take a break! The first is

http://99u.com/workbook/23511/why-you-need-a-think-week-like-bill-gates

The second is

http://99u.com/workbook/23763/why-taking-a-break-leads-to-breakthroughs

Not only have I been percolating with new ideas within these 3 days off but my mind, body & soul are abuzz with electricity & anticipation to work again! Disconnection for the sake of reconnection, for clarity & for new energy has been such a blessing! Thank you Mama for your unending love, support & advice. I’m so grateful for you & Love you so SO much! And Thank You Ross for your love & support & allowing me the space to be an emotional hurricane while you stay rooted, strong & steady & not judging me…I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!!

I’m the biggest advocate for balance & finding it everyday is definitely a practice in itself. I guess it’s fitting that one of the new lines I’m about to launch in April is The Balance line. No coincidence…just synchronistic. Glad I’m working through it, finding it & sharing it with the world. It is my wish that this helps you, whomever you are, think about taking time for yourself if you’re not doing so already. :) 

My think week is about half way through. Looking forward to what else will unfold in the next few days! To our “ME” time….Love & Light!

The Rolling Waves of Life
Life is beautiful, it is perfect. Yes there are things like cruelty, pain, darkness & negativity but these things give us perspective on how truly amazing everything we have in our lives really is. And it allows us to see how we can appreciate what is good & filled with light.  
A good friend of mine said recently, “There are NO mistakes in nature.” We live in an infinite Uni-verse, where our natural world has a finite amount of resources, where everything has an order of its own & where Divine Timing & patience are key. This brings me to appreciation. Appreciation for the beauty of what we do have & what we can create in this world. Far too often we take everything for granted…our lives, our health, our abundant resources, our family & friends, our capabilities & everything else in between. It’s sad to say, but it’s true. Far too often we don’t stop to smell the roses or watch the beautiful sunset, or stare into each other’s eyes. We usually don’t honor our bodies with love, gratitude & self acceptance. And we usually don’t take time to really appreciate those that are closest to us in our lives. I’ve been making it a practice to write what I’m grateful for everyday. Yes, some days I skip b/c I just hit go from the moment I wake up & these are the days that are usually a bit more trying for me. And I won’t really notice why until later in the day when I realize I didn’t start my day with GRATITUDE.
I’ve gotten to a point in my life where I don’t want to TRY anymore. I want to just BE. I want things to FLOW & ALIGN with EASE & SYNCHRONISTIC PERFECTION. I want to live a life of ABUNDANCE & be filled with JOY on a daily basis! Of course this hasn’t always been the case & recently in the past month I have been triggered & mirrored in ways that have shaken me up, pissed me off & caused me to react in ways I’m not in alignment with. I’m so grateful for these trying experiences, for these triggers & mirrors, because they too are perfect. They have given me the opportunity to practice what I AM in alignment with. They’ve allowed me to be present & aware to who I am & how I do not want to resonate with lower vibrational energies. They’ve allowed me to practice & utilize the tools I’ve learned through my work on my spiritual path. They’ve given me the opportunity to practice what I preach. They’ve allowed me to shift my idea of what I’m willing to accept in my life. And they’ve allowed me to practice being fluid as opposed to rigid.
Speaking of being in the flow & things aligning synchronistically, I’ve come back to teaching yoga again after almost a year & a half off & I’m so SOOO grateful for how it all came to be. Coming back to teaching after taking that time off has also highlighted so much for me!!! It helped me to see just how far down the rabbit hole I had gone in a direction I wasn’t wanting to go. It makes a world of difference when you surround yourself with people that are loving, kind & who actually see the Love & the Light within you & want to celebrate it…as opposed to being around people that complain all day & feed off negativity & drama. It’s amazing when staying in too close of contact with that sort of lower energy how even the most positive of people will start to feed into the drama. I’m so grateful & appreciative to be back in an environment where people see my brilliance & Love, encourage & support me for all that I do & for who I am.
And speaking of living a life of Abundance & FULL of Joy, I feel as though even though there’s not a ton of money in my bank account my life is more rich & more full than I could have ever imagined it! I have a roof over my head & I’m blessed that it’s just steps from the beach. I have food in my fridge. I am following my dream & living my passion as a Conscious Artist & Jewelry Designer! I have a man I LOVE so very very much & who Loves & Supports me more than any other man ever has!!! I have a support system of family & friends in my life that anyone would be lucky to have. I have a home for yoga & a steady paycheck coming in. I have a studio space where I’m getting incredible amounts of work done! I have a car to get me from point A to point B & I’ve got all the electronics I could need. I’ve got my health, my beauty, my amazing mind & a wealth of information that I’ve learned along my 32 years in this life! According to some, they’d say I have it all. And yet, there’s still anxiety that comes up around covering all my expenses….around feeling like I need more to make it all work.
This brings me to Faith & Trust & the beautiful balance of Divine Timing. Knowing that whatever is showing up is what needs to show up. There’s a lesson & a silver lining in every situation. When any issues dealing with money & expenses come up, it is directly related to self-worth & how we’re feeling either worthy or unworthy of receiving for our innate gifts & talents. If we’re being triggered by someone & are reacting instead of being conscious, this is an old wound or an old pattern needing to be addressed, worked on, healed or let go of. Knowing when we’re being offered an opportunity & ceasing it before it ceases to exist in our favor. Or knowing when something isn’t showing up right away, there’s virtue in being patient & waiting for the right moment to receive or act. This is ALL perfect too! There is a Divine Order to everything…we just have to have Faith & Trust & Be Open to what the flow is bringing. Because when we’re open WE receiving ALL the Abundance of the Uni-verse at every moment!!! 
Like I said, Life is Beautiful, it is PERFECT! No matter what you’re going through, just know that there is a reason. Look for the lesson when you’re being tried. Look for the silver lining when you’re feeling hopeless. Practice gratitude when you’re feeling un-full-filled. Let go when you feel yourself pushing. Look within when you’re feeling without or not feeling like yourself. And go outside & witness the beauty & perfection of the natural world when you’re feeling not so beautiful or perfect. I don’t have it all figured out, but I share what I’m going through & what helps me. I say often in this blog, that I’m not perfect…but you know what, I’m perfectly ME & of the sake of this post, therefore PERFECT. 
Oceans of Love! May you Flow with the Waves of Life b/c YOU are POWERFUL beyond measure!!! Feed into your greatness & your LIGHT! & surround yourself with those who believe in you too!
I’ll finish with one of my favorite quotes
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people will not feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It is not just in some of us; it is in everyone and as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give others permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others. —Marianne Williamson 

The Rolling Waves of Life

Life is beautiful, it is perfect. Yes there are things like cruelty, pain, darkness & negativity but these things give us perspective on how truly amazing everything we have in our lives really is. And it allows us to see how we can appreciate what is good & filled with light.  

A good friend of mine said recently, “There are NO mistakes in nature.” We live in an infinite Uni-verse, where our natural world has a finite amount of resources, where everything has an order of its own & where Divine Timing & patience are key. This brings me to appreciation. Appreciation for the beauty of what we do have & what we can create in this world. Far too often we take everything for granted…our lives, our health, our abundant resources, our family & friends, our capabilities & everything else in between. It’s sad to say, but it’s true. Far too often we don’t stop to smell the roses or watch the beautiful sunset, or stare into each other’s eyes. We usually don’t honor our bodies with love, gratitude & self acceptance. And we usually don’t take time to really appreciate those that are closest to us in our lives. I’ve been making it a practice to write what I’m grateful for everyday. Yes, some days I skip b/c I just hit go from the moment I wake up & these are the days that are usually a bit more trying for me. And I won’t really notice why until later in the day when I realize I didn’t start my day with GRATITUDE.

I’ve gotten to a point in my life where I don’t want to TRY anymore. I want to just BE. I want things to FLOW & ALIGN with EASE & SYNCHRONISTIC PERFECTION. I want to live a life of ABUNDANCE & be filled with JOY on a daily basis! Of course this hasn’t always been the case & recently in the past month I have been triggered & mirrored in ways that have shaken me up, pissed me off & caused me to react in ways I’m not in alignment with. I’m so grateful for these trying experiences, for these triggers & mirrors, because they too are perfect. They have given me the opportunity to practice what I AM in alignment with. They’ve allowed me to be present & aware to who I am & how I do not want to resonate with lower vibrational energies. They’ve allowed me to practice & utilize the tools I’ve learned through my work on my spiritual path. They’ve given me the opportunity to practice what I preach. They’ve allowed me to shift my idea of what I’m willing to accept in my life. And they’ve allowed me to practice being fluid as opposed to rigid.

Speaking of being in the flow & things aligning synchronistically, I’ve come back to teaching yoga again after almost a year & a half off & I’m so SOOO grateful for how it all came to be. Coming back to teaching after taking that time off has also highlighted so much for me!!! It helped me to see just how far down the rabbit hole I had gone in a direction I wasn’t wanting to go. It makes a world of difference when you surround yourself with people that are loving, kind & who actually see the Love & the Light within you & want to celebrate it…as opposed to being around people that complain all day & feed off negativity & drama. It’s amazing when staying in too close of contact with that sort of lower energy how even the most positive of people will start to feed into the drama. I’m so grateful & appreciative to be back in an environment where people see my brilliance & Love, encourage & support me for all that I do & for who I am.

And speaking of living a life of Abundance & FULL of Joy, I feel as though even though there’s not a ton of money in my bank account my life is more rich & more full than I could have ever imagined it! I have a roof over my head & I’m blessed that it’s just steps from the beach. I have food in my fridge. I am following my dream & living my passion as a Conscious Artist & Jewelry Designer! I have a man I LOVE so very very much & who Loves & Supports me more than any other man ever has!!! I have a support system of family & friends in my life that anyone would be lucky to have. I have a home for yoga & a steady paycheck coming in. I have a studio space where I’m getting incredible amounts of work done! I have a car to get me from point A to point B & I’ve got all the electronics I could need. I’ve got my health, my beauty, my amazing mind & a wealth of information that I’ve learned along my 32 years in this life! According to some, they’d say I have it all. And yet, there’s still anxiety that comes up around covering all my expenses….around feeling like I need more to make it all work.

This brings me to Faith & Trust & the beautiful balance of Divine Timing. Knowing that whatever is showing up is what needs to show up. There’s a lesson & a silver lining in every situation. When any issues dealing with money & expenses come up, it is directly related to self-worth & how we’re feeling either worthy or unworthy of receiving for our innate gifts & talents. If we’re being triggered by someone & are reacting instead of being conscious, this is an old wound or an old pattern needing to be addressed, worked on, healed or let go of. Knowing when we’re being offered an opportunity & ceasing it before it ceases to exist in our favor. Or knowing when something isn’t showing up right away, there’s virtue in being patient & waiting for the right moment to receive or act. This is ALL perfect too! There is a Divine Order to everything…we just have to have Faith & Trust & Be Open to what the flow is bringing. Because when we’re open WE receiving ALL the Abundance of the Uni-verse at every moment!!! 

Like I said, Life is Beautiful, it is PERFECT! No matter what you’re going through, just know that there is a reason. Look for the lesson when you’re being tried. Look for the silver lining when you’re feeling hopeless. Practice gratitude when you’re feeling un-full-filled. Let go when you feel yourself pushing. Look within when you’re feeling without or not feeling like yourself. And go outside & witness the beauty & perfection of the natural world when you’re feeling not so beautiful or perfect. I don’t have it all figured out, but I share what I’m going through & what helps me. I say often in this blog, that I’m not perfect…but you know what, I’m perfectly ME & of the sake of this post, therefore PERFECT. 

Oceans of Love! May you Flow with the Waves of Life b/c YOU are POWERFUL beyond measure!!! Feed into your greatness & your LIGHT! & surround yourself with those who believe in you too!

I’ll finish with one of my favorite quotes

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people will not feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It is not just in some of us; it is in everyone and as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give others permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others. —Marianne Williamson 

Seeing Through The Looking Glass

Yesterday I posted this quote on Facebook that a new friend of mine wrote in an email he sent out. 

"When we open up to grace and let down our guard, the universe has a mystical way of presenting us with what we need to see." -Josh Blatter.

All day, everyday I do my best to be present, to be conscious & aware of not only myself & what I’m saying & doing but of those around me. How my thoughts, words & actions will have an effect on the world & those around me. I do this as an act of staying present. This is a practice & I’m not perfect. For those of you that read my blog know that I say this quite a bit. I know I’m not perfect. I know life is a series of trials & errors & learning from your mistakes. And yes, I’ve made quite a few of them in my life. But I have no regrets. In the past few days this is what I was meant to see.

As I was being hyper-aware of my AWARE-ness the past few days I started to recollect my awareness of the “collection” of actions & reactions of those closest to me in my life. As I laid my head down to rest next to my loving man last night, this collection started to take weight. It started to weigh so heavy on me, that my sadness for the state of the world & those reactive souls around me started to feel like the actual weight of the world. The fake, the superficial, the downright disrespectful, the reactive, the condescending & the ungrateful all began to take form in my head. They just lined up facing me and I started to cry. I cried to release the energy & the weight. I cried not only for me & my sadness but I cried for those that "FEEL" like I do. My sweet man did his best to comfort me & that warmed my heart. I just needed to cry. I love him that much more for being that ‘supportive rock’ that I had asked the Uni-verse for in a mate. He’s everything I’ve asked for & more! I’m so grateful for him!!!

I’ve been on a truth-seeking path in this past year of my life & I’ve been calling forth & asking the Uni-verse to bring in conscious & aware individuals into my life. Those that seek truth just as I do. Those that are loving & kind & have hearts the size of continents! And the Uni-verse has provided them. But the Uni-verse has also provided an onslaught of “mirrors” to help me work on being the best version of myself; to utilize all the tools I’ve learned over the years, through my spiritual journey.

As I cried in my man’s arms I told him I knew I was making a difference in this world. I knew that I had touched many peoples lives. I knew & trusted & whole-heartedly believed in my life’s work that I’m doing now. But this burdening sadness & these tears were mainly for those closest to me that I was seemingly having NO effect on. 

As I asked myself what I wanted in this life, it became a more layered answer. Not only do I want happiness, peace & love for myself & the world but I want genuine authenticity. I’m over the superficial, I’m over just living on the surface. I don’t want to always be in a deep philosophical conversation, but I do want truth…as often as humanly possible. If you have a problem with me, say it. If there’s something that’s weighing heavy on you that I have triggered, speak it. I can only be the best version of myself when I’m constantly doing MY work. And I can only pick up so much on your energetic cues. I’m not a mind-reader & if you don’t speak, I’ll never know. I do my best to ‘be my best’ every moment of the day. I let my guard down often & I’m letting myself be more vulnerable in social situations. I do my best to be authentically & unapologetically me. If we have a problem & neither of us speaks it, then that problem will persist & manifest somewhere else in our relationship. If I do my work around the problem & you don’t then it becomes your problem & not mine. I’ve become less & less afraid to set my boundaries & speak my mind.

I know I can only live by example, that I cannot ask anyone to change…but my heart aches for these people that are close to me that are living an unconscious & reactive life, playing the victim or the martyr, that are cynics & would rather avoid looking deeper at the truth of what really is. Those that like to spin stories up in their head & assume rather than just asking for the truth. It is for you that I cried last night, for you I pray for, for you I send a blessing to. It is my wish that you can find your way to the looking glass & actually look at yourself, what you’re feeling, sensing & seeing & not be afraid to walk through to viewing the truth of what really is. This world is full of illusions….we can choose to feed them or we can choose to dig deeper. We can choose to feel or we can choose to numb out & mask what is really going on. We are given a choice every moment. I choose Truth. I choose Love. I choose Heart instead of Head. I choose Positivity & Light. 

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I got 3 quotes today that dealt with the power of our thoughts. When I receive things in 3’s I take notice & immediate action! There’s something about the power of threes…but that’s another story. Back to the quotes… 
“As you perceive something, you give birth to a thought, and this thought now thinks. Now that it exists, now that it has been conjured, now that it has been focused, it now vibrates. Now, by Law of Attraction, other thoughts that are vibrationally the same will come to it. So it begins its expansion immediately.” —Abraham
"Deny not heaven. It is yours today, but for the asking. Nor need you perceive how great the gift, how changed the mind will be before it comes to you. Ask to receive, and it is given to you. Conviction lies within. Till you welcome it as yours, uncertainty remains." —Lesson 165 from A Course In Miracles
"A gentle reminder…energy goes where attention flows. What you seek will seek you, what you focus on will manifest, have no doubt. Remember each of us is responsible for every creation that unfolds in our life, so keep track on where your thoughts are in the moment. Shift your thoughts to experience good, as you deserve and can have it all." —11:11 Awakening Code
Just yesterday I was given the gift of insight that I was creating a cloud of shame & guilt around the person I had cut out of my life recently. I was tapped to forgive myself, ground that energy & to release it once & for all. To focus on what I really wanted & to tap into my flow.
This morning as I awoke I was given the insight that I would receive a message in 3’s…this was the message…loud & clear! ‘Notice where you are focusing your thoughts & adjust them to create what you want.’ So, with this message, I took the time all day to be present: to work, to get into my flow, to do the things I needed to do, to take care of myself, to support a friend, to say “no” to hanging out, to being fully engaged & producing on my day “off”(….sheesh, holiday season as a jewelry designer…I don’t think there’s going to be a day off for a while….but it’s okay, I’m really grateful for it! ;D ) And what came from being present allllll day, a message from a friend that my info was being passed along to her friends about potentially buying a painting from me, also I finished a handful of pieces, photographed them, uploaded them on Etsy, Twitter, fb & Instgram. I got some grocery shopping done. I got a walk on the beach in, got some coffee, went to a BBQ & touched base with a few clients & friends. I also set up appointments for the week with 3 people. I had an amazingly productive day without feeling overwhelmed or stressed. It just flowed & it was a nice reminder of what it’s like to truly be in-the-flow. Actually, for the past few days, I’ve been flowing & productive as well. Making new pieces, feeling inspired & seeing goals manifesting along with aligning with friends & making tons of connections.
Just yesterday I had a great conversation with a friend about online marketing & it was mind-blowing! Not only did he give me big aha’s, he also gave me some great pearls of wisdom. And, it just so happens too, that he’s going to be out here in LA next month & he invited me to his seminar, which I’m so excited about attending.  
I’m so grateful for this time & for this full moon. Energetically, it has given me a surge unlike anything I’ve really known. I’m not burning hot & fizzling out, I’m finally feeling really balanced. I finally feel as though I’m learning the art of balancing work & play, free-time, create-mode & marketing. There are still other things I’m trying to juggle, but I’m seeing that these are just other things I’m good at that I do, but that I have to keep them on the back burner & focus my energy where it’s really needed a the moment. Just like the dance of dating & relationships…which I still have no clue about…there is a fine art to life. And although, I know nothing in the realm of dating, I’m finally learning what it takes to balance my life & everything in it, which feels amazing!
It feels as though the world is my oyster & the pearl is mine, like everything I want is showing up. I know that as long as I keep this state of mind & keep putting in the work & keep staying present, that I will have it all…everything I want, deserve & have worked very hard for. We’re all waiting for the big break…& I’m not sure I believe in overnight success. Because we only see the final act before the major success. I’m grateful for all that I’ve been through, for all that I’ve learned & for all that I’m receiving. If it hadn’t had been hard work, I wouldn’t appreciate it as much & value it so highly. I believe in myself. I believe in what I’m doing. I believe that this is my calling. I believe that everything has finally fallen into place once again. I believe that the world of my dreams is manifesting. And I believe in the magic & miraculous Divine. I am committed & convicted to my dream & what I was put on this earth to create, be & share with the world.
So remember your thoughts…energy goes where attention flows. Our thoughts eventually create our reality. Get clear on what you don’t want, then let it go. Next start thinking and giving all your energy, time & effort towards what you do want….and never give up! It’s usually at that moment when you feel like it’s hopeless & you’ve used up every resource that you’re ready to throw in the towel on your dreams that something shifts. It’s that surrender. The photo on my phone’s lock screen says, “ASK. BELIEVE. ACT. LET GO…RECEIVE.” I see it all day, everyday. Do I always acknowledge this image…no, because I look at it so often. But when I do stop & read it, it does remind me to let go…to surrender at that point where there really is nothing left for me to do but to keep on working & TRUST…it always comes back to trust for me. For a whole year now, every lesson leads back to trust. I whole-heartedly believe. I whole-heartedly trust. Therefore it is…so it is written, so it shall be.
Love to you, whomever you are reading this. May you find the light within to shine bright on all that you desire to create in this world for your life. I believe in you. Think good thoughts!

I got 3 quotes today that dealt with the power of our thoughts. When I receive things in 3’s I take notice & immediate action! There’s something about the power of threes…but that’s another story. Back to the quotes… 

As you perceive something, you give birth to a thought, and this thought now thinks. Now that it exists, now that it has been conjured, now that it has been focused, it now vibrates. Now, by Law of Attraction, other thoughts that are vibrationally the same will come to it. So it begins its expansion immediately.” —Abraham

"Deny not heaven. It is yours today, but for the asking. Nor need you perceive how great the gift, how changed the mind will be before it comes to you. Ask to receive, and it is given to you. Conviction lies within. Till you welcome it as yours, uncertainty remains." —Lesson 165 from A Course In Miracles

"A gentle reminder…energy goes where attention flows. What you seek will seek you, what you focus on will manifest, have no doubt. Remember each of us is responsible for every creation that unfolds in our life, so keep track on where your thoughts are in the moment. Shift your thoughts to experience good, as you deserve and can have it all." —11:11 Awakening Code

Just yesterday I was given the gift of insight that I was creating a cloud of shame & guilt around the person I had cut out of my life recently. I was tapped to forgive myself, ground that energy & to release it once & for all. To focus on what I really wanted & to tap into my flow.

This morning as I awoke I was given the insight that I would receive a message in 3’s…this was the message…loud & clear! ‘Notice where you are focusing your thoughts & adjust them to create what you want.’ So, with this message, I took the time all day to be present: to work, to get into my flow, to do the things I needed to do, to take care of myself, to support a friend, to say “no” to hanging out, to being fully engaged & producing on my day “off”(….sheesh, holiday season as a jewelry designer…I don’t think there’s going to be a day off for a while….but it’s okay, I’m really grateful for it! ;D ) And what came from being present allllll day, a message from a friend that my info was being passed along to her friends about potentially buying a painting from me, also I finished a handful of pieces, photographed them, uploaded them on Etsy, Twitter, fb & Instgram. I got some grocery shopping done. I got a walk on the beach in, got some coffee, went to a BBQ & touched base with a few clients & friends. I also set up appointments for the week with 3 people. I had an amazingly productive day without feeling overwhelmed or stressed. It just flowed & it was a nice reminder of what it’s like to truly be in-the-flow. Actually, for the past few days, I’ve been flowing & productive as well. Making new pieces, feeling inspired & seeing goals manifesting along with aligning with friends & making tons of connections.

Just yesterday I had a great conversation with a friend about online marketing & it was mind-blowing! Not only did he give me big aha’s, he also gave me some great pearls of wisdom. And, it just so happens too, that he’s going to be out here in LA next month & he invited me to his seminar, which I’m so excited about attending.  

I’m so grateful for this time & for this full moon. Energetically, it has given me a surge unlike anything I’ve really known. I’m not burning hot & fizzling out, I’m finally feeling really balanced. I finally feel as though I’m learning the art of balancing work & play, free-time, create-mode & marketing. There are still other things I’m trying to juggle, but I’m seeing that these are just other things I’m good at that I do, but that I have to keep them on the back burner & focus my energy where it’s really needed a the moment. Just like the dance of dating & relationships…which I still have no clue about…there is a fine art to life. And although, I know nothing in the realm of dating, I’m finally learning what it takes to balance my life & everything in it, which feels amazing!

It feels as though the world is my oyster & the pearl is mine, like everything I want is showing up. I know that as long as I keep this state of mind & keep putting in the work & keep staying present, that I will have it all…everything I want, deserve & have worked very hard for. We’re all waiting for the big break…& I’m not sure I believe in overnight success. Because we only see the final act before the major success. I’m grateful for all that I’ve been through, for all that I’ve learned & for all that I’m receiving. If it hadn’t had been hard work, I wouldn’t appreciate it as much & value it so highly. I believe in myself. I believe in what I’m doing. I believe that this is my calling. I believe that everything has finally fallen into place once again. I believe that the world of my dreams is manifesting. And I believe in the magic & miraculous Divine. I am committed & convicted to my dream & what I was put on this earth to create, be & share with the world.

So remember your thoughts…energy goes where attention flows. Our thoughts eventually create our reality. Get clear on what you don’t want, then let it go. Next start thinking and giving all your energy, time & effort towards what you do want….and never give up! It’s usually at that moment when you feel like it’s hopeless & you’ve used up every resource that you’re ready to throw in the towel on your dreams that something shifts. It’s that surrender. The photo on my phone’s lock screen says, “ASK. BELIEVE. ACT. LET GO…RECEIVE.” I see it all day, everyday. Do I always acknowledge this image…no, because I look at it so often. But when I do stop & read it, it does remind me to let go…to surrender at that point where there really is nothing left for me to do but to keep on working & TRUST…it always comes back to trust for me. For a whole year now, every lesson leads back to trust. I whole-heartedly believe. I whole-heartedly trust. Therefore it is…so it is written, so it shall be.

Love to you, whomever you are reading this. May you find the light within to shine bright on all that you desire to create in this world for your life. I believe in you. Think good thoughts!

misskingrell said: Not a question just a compliment. I love your article on impermanence. it's quite palpable. I feel like our mentality is waaaaay too similar. Nice to know that there are others out here that care about deeper topics. Thanks for this :) - Namaste

Thank you misskingrell! It’s always nice to meet kindred spirits on the same frequency! It’s a beautiful feeling to know you’re not alone in your thinking & although we’re a large minority in these thoughts, day after day more people are waking up & becoming more aware. We are all connected.

Blessings, Love & Light

-Namaste

"Without Impermanence, Life Would Not Be Possible." -Thich Nhat Hanh
After cutting someone dear to my heart out of my life just the other day, I have gone through a slew of emotions. I knew it was for the better, I knew it was time, I knew it was me finally getting clear on not accepting being unacknowledged & unseen. It went on for far too long. I know it was me stepping into my truth & owning my worth as to what friendship is to me.
Friendship is respect, showing up, being present, acknowledgement of the other person & receiving what I am so openly giving unconditionally. But after a year of me “fooling myself” I knew enough was enough. I did my best to be the bigger person, to acknowledge & meet them with an open heart every time, but without acknowledgment, without connection, without respect, I knew my heart could tolerate no more. There was too much emotion invested for me. Even though I have done tons of work around forgiveness, unconditional love, cutting the cords, letting go, etc…their energy kept creeping back in. I was pushed to my limit the other day & although it saddened me deeply to do it, I knew I had to actually say it to them & sever the ties completely.
Through the past few days since, I have been on a roller coaster & have felt at peace only to drop into deep into turmoil. I’ve felt free & then heavy & burdened. I knew it was for the better, because it was me finally honoring myself & my truth. But why then was I looping everything over & over in my head?
After talking this through with a close friend a couple days later, I realized that he too was going through something very similar. We bonded shortly over this sadness of letting someone go, cutting them out of our lives completely & then we talked more about the idea of what really matters in this world.
This brings me to the topic of impermanence.
Nothing is forever. Change is the nature of everything. What is born must die, at least in some form. But after watching this short video,
http://www.upworthy.com/are-you-happy-and-in-love-here-s-why-that-makes-you-so-sad
I really resonated with not accepting impermanence for the sake of it.
After also having a talk with another friend this morning about the tsunami that just hit the Philippines, this topic of impermanence & what truly matters came up again. So here it was rearing it’s head 3x in one day…the power of 3’s!
Looking at this fact…we know that what truly matters in life is CONNECTION. Why must it take a disaster to get people to wake up to come together? Why must I walk away for you to acknowledge me? Why can we not connect, eye to eye, heart to heart in every interaction? Why can’t we talk about what really matters in this life? Why can’t we go deeper? Why can’t we be more real?
Because we are scared. Because we fear. Because we take it for granted until it’s finally gone. Because we take ourselves too seriously & get caught up in our own drama that we shut people out. It’s easier to disconnect. It’s easier to look away. It’s easier to (pardon my french) fuck than it is to make love. It’s easier to head towards the door than to sit down & listen.
We have this life, right here, right now. Yeah, we may come back & have another one. Yeah, we may have had a few before this too…but we’re here in the present, right now. & I don’t want to let go so easily…I want to Love harder. I want to go deeper. I want to talk longer about things that matter.I want to talk about you & how you’re doing or your experiences, not about sports or about your jacket. I want more connection while I have you in my presence. I want you to call or text me when you’re thinking about me, this will light up my day! I want to tell you ‘I Love You’ more, even though you might be sick of hearing it or it’s hard for you to say back…because you know what, if I lose you tomorrow, at least I can say I didn’t just let you go, I didn’t just let you walk away without you knowing how much you mean to me. This goes for everyone in my life. I know I’ve gotten extremely busy & have been at fault for this more than once, but this is me saying that I’m working on it. Yes it’d be sad to lose this roof over my head, to lose all my belongings, but I’d still have my heart, & it’s my deepest wish that I’d still have you in my life to connect with & lean on to talk to or to hold tight.
Impermanence is something we cannot avoid. We don’t have to hold on for dear life either. But we can ALL make a little more of an effort to be true, honest & open to connecting heart to heart with people. We’re all human, we all seek connection (whether we know it or not) & we all want to be loved. Your heart may not be as open & free-flowing as mine & that’s okay, but know I want to truly connect with you while I have you around. I’ve got a whole lotta Love to give & if you’re willing to receive it, I think you’re one of the lucky ones. If you’re not & you take me for granted, I may walk away from you as well & only send you Love from afar. But you’ll be missing out on ALL that IS me. & maybe you’re okay with that…
What can you do to connect deeper today? What could you do to step more fully into your truth? What are you doing to truly honor yourself & your self-worth?
To those of you I have released, thank you for teaching me all that you have. Thank you for allowing me to step more fully into myself. The light within me honors the light within you. I shall miss you & whatever it is that we shared. Know that I still hold you in my heart, for it is vast & truly expansive.
With a Blessing of Love,
Priscilla

"Without Impermanence, Life Would Not Be Possible." -Thich Nhat Hanh

After cutting someone dear to my heart out of my life just the other day, I have gone through a slew of emotions. I knew it was for the better, I knew it was time, I knew it was me finally getting clear on not accepting being unacknowledged & unseen. It went on for far too long. I know it was me stepping into my truth & owning my worth as to what friendship is to me.

Friendship is respect, showing up, being present, acknowledgement of the other person & receiving what I am so openly giving unconditionally. But after a year of me “fooling myself” I knew enough was enough. I did my best to be the bigger person, to acknowledge & meet them with an open heart every time, but without acknowledgment, without connection, without respect, I knew my heart could tolerate no more. There was too much emotion invested for me. Even though I have done tons of work around forgiveness, unconditional love, cutting the cords, letting go, etc…their energy kept creeping back in. I was pushed to my limit the other day & although it saddened me deeply to do it, I knew I had to actually say it to them & sever the ties completely.

Through the past few days since, I have been on a roller coaster & have felt at peace only to drop into deep into turmoil. I’ve felt free & then heavy & burdened. I knew it was for the better, because it was me finally honoring myself & my truth. But why then was I looping everything over & over in my head?

After talking this through with a close friend a couple days later, I realized that he too was going through something very similar. We bonded shortly over this sadness of letting someone go, cutting them out of our lives completely & then we talked more about the idea of what really matters in this world.

This brings me to the topic of impermanence.

Nothing is forever. Change is the nature of everything. What is born must die, at least in some form. But after watching this short video,

http://www.upworthy.com/are-you-happy-and-in-love-here-s-why-that-makes-you-so-sad

I really resonated with not accepting impermanence for the sake of it.

After also having a talk with another friend this morning about the tsunami that just hit the Philippines, this topic of impermanence & what truly matters came up again. So here it was rearing it’s head 3x in one day…the power of 3’s!

Looking at this fact…we know that what truly matters in life is CONNECTION. Why must it take a disaster to get people to wake up to come together? Why must I walk away for you to acknowledge me? Why can we not connect, eye to eye, heart to heart in every interaction? Why can’t we talk about what really matters in this life? Why can’t we go deeper? Why can’t we be more real?

Because we are scared. Because we fear. Because we take it for granted until it’s finally gone. Because we take ourselves too seriously & get caught up in our own drama that we shut people out. It’s easier to disconnect. It’s easier to look away. It’s easier to (pardon my french) fuck than it is to make love. It’s easier to head towards the door than to sit down & listen.

We have this life, right here, right now. Yeah, we may come back & have another one. Yeah, we may have had a few before this too…but we’re here in the present, right now. & I don’t want to let go so easily…I want to Love harder. I want to go deeper. I want to talk longer about things that matter.I want to talk about you & how you’re doing or your experiences, not about sports or about your jacket. I want more connection while I have you in my presence. I want you to call or text me when you’re thinking about me, this will light up my day! I want to tell you ‘I Love You’ more, even though you might be sick of hearing it or it’s hard for you to say back…because you know what, if I lose you tomorrow, at least I can say I didn’t just let you go, I didn’t just let you walk away without you knowing how much you mean to me. This goes for everyone in my life. I know I’ve gotten extremely busy & have been at fault for this more than once, but this is me saying that I’m working on it. Yes it’d be sad to lose this roof over my head, to lose all my belongings, but I’d still have my heart, & it’s my deepest wish that I’d still have you in my life to connect with & lean on to talk to or to hold tight.

Impermanence is something we cannot avoid. We don’t have to hold on for dear life either. But we can ALL make a little more of an effort to be true, honest & open to connecting heart to heart with people. We’re all human, we all seek connection (whether we know it or not) & we all want to be loved. Your heart may not be as open & free-flowing as mine & that’s okay, but know I want to truly connect with you while I have you around. I’ve got a whole lotta Love to give & if you’re willing to receive it, I think you’re one of the lucky ones. If you’re not & you take me for granted, I may walk away from you as well & only send you Love from afar. But you’ll be missing out on ALL that IS me. & maybe you’re okay with that…

What can you do to connect deeper today? What could you do to step more fully into your truth? What are you doing to truly honor yourself & your self-worth?

To those of you I have released, thank you for teaching me all that you have. Thank you for allowing me to step more fully into myself. The light within me honors the light within you. I shall miss you & whatever it is that we shared. Know that I still hold you in my heart, for it is vast & truly expansive.

With a Blessing of Love,

Priscilla

cre·ate (ing)

 cre·ate  /krēˈāt/

(verb)

1. bring something into existence

2. cause (something) to happen as a cause of one’s actions

3. (of an actor) originate (a role) by playing a character for the first time

4. invest (someone) with a new rank or title

I chose to be happy. This has meant pulling the trigger…saddling up even though it scared me…severing the cords…& pulling the plug on energy lines that drained me & my energy. This has meant speaking up & saying what needs to be said even though the knot in my stomach & the lump in my throat made me want to throw up. I knew I needed to speak my truth. This has involved setting boundaries, letting others know what I am worth, what I’m willing to put up with & what I’m not willing to accept. This has involved saying what I’m looking for, what I want, what I need, what’s not working & what does work for me. 
I chose myself…my happiness…my heart & my peace of mind. Even though it involved making ripples, shaking things up & maybe even stirring conflict. By me speaking my truth & choosing myself, the air & energy actually becomes more clear. The channel becomes open to new energy & the old pattern & way of doing things (in my way, this was internalizing so as to avoid conflict at all costs) dissolves. Me & whomever I am opening up to, become clear as to what our needs are, we associate & work through our feelings & then we learn & we grow in that moment. 
It is such a blessing to be in this space, to be holding this intention so as to feed & nurture my truth & allow others to feed & nurture theirs. Not only am I speaking up, saying what I need to say, but I’m also taking action in ways that I normally wouldn’t. I am letting go of old attachments that were no longer serving me or my best interest, I am being more realistic & real with myself & I am choosing to walk away from certain people. 
I know I am full of trust, I am the embodiment of Love, I wear my heart on my sleeve & I am a giver. I openly give Love, trust & openness freely. When any of these is either not met, not acknowledged after continued efforts, or is betrayed…I will retract my heart & my energies. What I am learning is not to shut down in this process, but to continue to stay open, to dig deeper & to crack open wider to what is showing up & to who is available & wanting to receive all that I have to give.
Sometimes these cuts are necessary. Sometimes we need to be cut off & slapped in the face to realize what we were taking for granted & taking advantage of. I want, am deserving of & know that I am worth substance, connection & real depth. I want more. I want you to show up. I want you to look me in the eyes. I want to feel something when we talk. I want you to acknowledge me for all the beauty, magnificence & dimensionality I am & have. I want you to see me, REALLY SEE ME for all that I am. I will no longer let you use me whenever it’s convenient. I will no longer serve you & your purpose if you cannot meet me at that same level. I am no longer a part of the 50/50 crowd. I am a key player in the 100/100 crowd, & am playing with those that are ALL IN.
I met some truly beautiful people tonight at an impromptu bbq that I got invited to just an hour before it started. I tapped in & had this experience of being seen, being heard, being genuine. It was so refreshing!!! Also last night I had a ladies night with some of my most favorite women in the whole wide world! We all connected on such a deep & profound level. We all learned so much not only about one another but about ourselves in the process. We were awed, unveiled & filled.
It’s amazing how much you can actually GIVE someone when you are completely present & open to connecting with them. What is also amazing is how much you can actually receive by this same act. Not only does this person feel seen, felt & heard but they shine brighter. In the process you receive gratitude, fullness & a glimpse of the realness of someone. In order for the whole energetic exchange to be completed & truly felt you have to be genuine, open & fully heart centered. You have to really listen & show up for that other person as opposed to self fulfilling your own needs, wants or ego. Something truly magical happens! When you start to tap into this, you crave it more & more. You get to the point where I & so many others I know are at, where you won’t stand for anything less because it’s out of alignment with your integrity & who you are. For this moment I am truly & unbelievably grateful for BEing at this point in my life!!! I know exactly what I don’t want & now I’m only holding space & creating the container for what I do want…on every level in my life.
Thank you to those beautiful souls I really connected with this weekend! Thank you to those of you who helped break me down, who stirred up my shit & helped me realize & get clear on what is not working so I could sever it & let it go. Thank you to those of you who have shown up, every time, who mirror me & show me who I truly want to be. Thank you to those of you who help support me. Thank you to those of you who really SEE me & my worth! It is to you that I am truly grateful for!!!! I am learning everyday. I know I am not perfect. I know I am a continual piece of work. I know there’s more digging, more unveiling & more cracking open & I’m ready. I’m ready for more depth, for higher frequencies, for more connection & for more real-ness. I’m ready for more awakened souls to enter my life. I’m ready for substance, for duration & real Love.
In me speaking my truth, aligning with my integrity & owning my worth I am choosing to be happy, to be free, to be Love, to be trust, to be all heart & all in. Will you join me on this journey of truth? If so, I’ll see you on the path…for it is always there…waiting for you to jump in!

I chose to be happy. This has meant pulling the trigger…saddling up even though it scared me…severing the cords…& pulling the plug on energy lines that drained me & my energy. This has meant speaking up & saying what needs to be said even though the knot in my stomach & the lump in my throat made me want to throw up. I knew I needed to speak my truth. This has involved setting boundaries, letting others know what I am worth, what I’m willing to put up with & what I’m not willing to accept. This has involved saying what I’m looking for, what I want, what I need, what’s not working & what does work for me. 

I chose myself…my happiness…my heart & my peace of mind. Even though it involved making ripples, shaking things up & maybe even stirring conflict. By me speaking my truth & choosing myself, the air & energy actually becomes more clear. The channel becomes open to new energy & the old pattern & way of doing things (in my way, this was internalizing so as to avoid conflict at all costs) dissolves. Me & whomever I am opening up to, become clear as to what our needs are, we associate & work through our feelings & then we learn & we grow in that moment. 

It is such a blessing to be in this space, to be holding this intention so as to feed & nurture my truth & allow others to feed & nurture theirs. Not only am I speaking up, saying what I need to say, but I’m also taking action in ways that I normally wouldn’t. I am letting go of old attachments that were no longer serving me or my best interest, I am being more realistic & real with myself & I am choosing to walk away from certain people. 

I know I am full of trust, I am the embodiment of Love, I wear my heart on my sleeve & I am a giver. I openly give Love, trust & openness freely. When any of these is either not met, not acknowledged after continued efforts, or is betrayed…I will retract my heart & my energies. What I am learning is not to shut down in this process, but to continue to stay open, to dig deeper & to crack open wider to what is showing up & to who is available & wanting to receive all that I have to give.

Sometimes these cuts are necessary. Sometimes we need to be cut off & slapped in the face to realize what we were taking for granted & taking advantage of. I want, am deserving of & know that I am worth substance, connection & real depth. I want more. I want you to show up. I want you to look me in the eyes. I want to feel something when we talk. I want you to acknowledge me for all the beauty, magnificence & dimensionality I am & have. I want you to see me, REALLY SEE ME for all that I am. I will no longer let you use me whenever it’s convenient. I will no longer serve you & your purpose if you cannot meet me at that same level. I am no longer a part of the 50/50 crowd. I am a key player in the 100/100 crowd, & am playing with those that are ALL IN.

I met some truly beautiful people tonight at an impromptu bbq that I got invited to just an hour before it started. I tapped in & had this experience of being seen, being heard, being genuine. It was so refreshing!!! Also last night I had a ladies night with some of my most favorite women in the whole wide world! We all connected on such a deep & profound level. We all learned so much not only about one another but about ourselves in the process. We were awed, unveiled & filled.

It’s amazing how much you can actually GIVE someone when you are completely present & open to connecting with them. What is also amazing is how much you can actually receive by this same act. Not only does this person feel seen, felt & heard but they shine brighter. In the process you receive gratitude, fullness & a glimpse of the realness of someone. In order for the whole energetic exchange to be completed & truly felt you have to be genuine, open & fully heart centered. You have to really listen & show up for that other person as opposed to self fulfilling your own needs, wants or ego. Something truly magical happens! When you start to tap into this, you crave it more & more. You get to the point where I & so many others I know are at, where you won’t stand for anything less because it’s out of alignment with your integrity & who you are. For this moment I am truly & unbelievably grateful for BEing at this point in my life!!! I know exactly what I don’t want & now I’m only holding space & creating the container for what I do want…on every level in my life.

Thank you to those beautiful souls I really connected with this weekend! Thank you to those of you who helped break me down, who stirred up my shit & helped me realize & get clear on what is not working so I could sever it & let it go. Thank you to those of you who have shown up, every time, who mirror me & show me who I truly want to be. Thank you to those of you who help support me. Thank you to those of you who really SEE me & my worth! It is to you that I am truly grateful for!!!! I am learning everyday. I know I am not perfect. I know I am a continual piece of work. I know there’s more digging, more unveiling & more cracking open & I’m ready. I’m ready for more depth, for higher frequencies, for more connection & for more real-ness. I’m ready for more awakened souls to enter my life. I’m ready for substance, for duration & real Love.

In me speaking my truth, aligning with my integrity & owning my worth I am choosing to be happy, to be free, to be Love, to be trust, to be all heart & all in. Will you join me on this journey of truth? If so, I’ll see you on the path…for it is always there…waiting for you to jump in!

I am. I am grateful. I am healed. I am supported. I am unique. I am beautiful. I am loved. I am heart-centered. I am successful. I am a conduit for change. I am happy. I am full-filled. I am in awe of this world around me. I am connected. I am light. I am perfect. I am blessed. I am high vibrational energy. I am a miracle. I am tuned in. I am turned on. I am blissed out. I am on fire. I am alive. I am loving life. I am aligned. I am awake. I am unfolding. I am open. I am flexible. I am Divine. I am One with ALL there is. I am.
And I have everything I need.

I am. I am grateful. I am healed. I am supported. I am unique. I am beautiful. I am loved. I am heart-centered. I am successful. I am a conduit for change. I am happy. I am full-filled. I am in awe of this world around me. I am connected. I am light. I am perfect. I am blessed. I am high vibrational energy. I am a miracle. I am tuned in. I am turned on. I am blissed out. I am on fire. I am alive. I am loving life. I am aligned. I am awake. I am unfolding. I am open. I am flexible. I am Divine. I am One with ALL there is. I am.

And I have everything I need.

Fleeting is the flower that blooms, just as the scent of a rose….fleeting is the Love that grows within until you find somebody new. Some may say fleeting is the heart that burns fiery with Love, but just as Miss Midler says, “Lies the seed, that with the sun’s love in the spring becomes the rose.”
Bette Midler’s song The Rose is one of my favorites.
"Some say love, it is a river, that drowns the tender reedSome say love, it is a razor, that leaves your soul to bleedSome say love, it is a hunger, an endless aching needI say love, it is a flower, and you, its only seedIts the heart afraid of breaking, that never learns to danceIts the dream afraid of waking, that never takes a chanceIts the one that won’t be taking, that cannot seem to giveIt’s the one afraid of dying, that never learns to liveWhen the night has been too lonely and the road has been too longAnd you think that love is only for the lucky and the strongJust remember in the winter, far beneath the bitter snowLies the seed, that with the sun’s love in the spring becomes the rose.”
Life is fleeting, with each breath we can choose to be present or choose to close our eyes. We can choose to be truly ourselves, speaking our truth, acknowledging our hearts or we can choose the confines of fear. We can choose to stay in what we know as comfortable or we can choose to live outside our limits. We can walk the wire or stay on the sidewalk. Life is made for living, in the moment, true to our soul’s calling of guiding us towards the light. Life is not meant to be lived in the dark, behind the walls we’ve built, under the blankets & veils of disillusion.
I wear my heart on my sleeve. I am not ashamed of this. I am the embodiment of trust & when I open up & let someone in, if even a little, I usually, maybe a bit naively, trust that they will meet me on this level of trust, openness & acceptance. More times than not I have been proven wrong. This bruises me & my delicate heart, but yet it has also been what has offered me some of the most growth & strength.
If for even a moment, fleeting as it may be, I can be the soft touch of a rose’s petal against one’s skin, to plant a seed of love within them, I will take that chance every time. For I do not dare to be the thorn that pricks & draws blood but I guess you cannot have the delicate & beautifully lush fragrant rose without it’s stem of thorns.
And just like another one of my favorites, Poison’s Every Rose Has Its Thorn (chorus)
"Every rose has its thornJust like every night has its dawnJust like every cowboy sings his sad, sad songEvery rose has its thorn”
Who are we if not blooming our full authentic & true self? Who are we if not vulnerable to the elements, to the wild life around us? Who are we if not the light we are Divinely given? Who are we if not our fullest expression? 
We are limited. We are hiding. We are playing small. We are holding back.
Well, I don’t know about you…but I am done holding back. I am done playing small. I am done feeling like I’m not enough…because I know that I am enough. I am more than enough. I am the perfect amount…perfect in every way, shape & form. I am happy & proud of who I am. I am amazing & I am ready for the rest of the world to see me in this light. I’m ready to be truly seen, on every level, for who I am, for what I offer to the world, for the light I bring to this great green earth.
If you can’t see this & you want to judge me, call me names, or whatever & this makes you feel better about yourself, please by all means go ahead. I know I am unique. I know I am deep. I know that I am multi-faceted & full of so much Love that I am willing to share openly. In this moment I am owning my worth. I know I am worth every once of what you’re willing to put in. I am worth every penny you’ve got. I am worth your time & I am worth your effort. I am investing 100% of myself…for more depth, for more connection, for more Love, for more light, for more joy, for more fulfillment. I am done with superficiality, I am done with surface value. If you want to be a part of my life, if you want my time, then you need to invest a little more into yourself & into me. I’m done with 50/50. I want it all or nothing. 100/100…whole to whole. I have a ton to offer the world! I’m talented, I’m beautiful, I’m giving & kind, I’m real, I’m funny, I’m thoughtful & I’m gentle. I’m also the opposite of all these things, but I work hard on being the best version of myself that I can be. This is me going all in. This is me speaking my truth. This is all of me for better or worse. If this scares you, then you’re scared of being real. If this turns you off, then we’re not vibing on the same level. If this triggers you, see this as a reflection of you needing to own your worth & stop judging me for owning mine. I can be a bitch, I can be a whore, I can be the Madonna & the Saint, I can be the perfect wife, the scared little girl & I can be the nurturer. I am the High Priestess, The Goddess, The Mother, The Sister & The Daughter. I am The Empress & The Queen & I deserve all that I want & all that I am working for.
My life hasn’t been cookie-cutter by any means, I have been paving my own path for a long time & dancing to the beat of my own drum. For this I am grateful. I have everything I need & everything I desire is already mine. I am happy & full of gratitude for this life I’ve been gifted & for the path my soul has chosen.
Will you join me in truth, in the depths, & in this plot of earth? Will you feed & nurture these seeds that I have planted so that in the spring we can be in full bloom? I am here, open & trusting that you’ll see me & my worth & that you’ll join me in the sun’s light to nurture, grow & bloom to fullness because we are all in this together. This world is a collective. We are connected you & I, whether we know one another or not; whether we talk every day or not. the Light within me acknowledges & sees the light within you. You are as perfect as this rose that I’m admiring & I see you.
Love & Light my Beautiful Roses! May we meet in Full Bloom!

Photo: (one of the prettiest & sweetest smelling roses from my lil’ Aussie…thanks Stu) 

Fleeting is the flower that blooms, just as the scent of a rose….fleeting is the Love that grows within until you find somebody new. Some may say fleeting is the heart that burns fiery with Love, but just as Miss Midler says, “Lies the seed, that with the sun’s love in the spring becomes the rose.”

Bette Midler’s song The Rose is one of my favorites.

"Some say love, it is a river, that drowns the tender reed
Some say love, it is a razor, that leaves your soul to bleed
Some say love, it is a hunger, an endless aching need
I say love, it is a flower, and you, its only seed

Its the heart afraid of breaking, that never learns to dance
Its the dream afraid of waking, that never takes a chance
Its the one that won’t be taking, that cannot seem to give
It’s the one afraid of dying, that never learns to live

When the night has been too lonely and the road has been too long
And you think that love is only for the lucky and the strong
Just remember in the winter, far beneath the bitter snow
Lies the seed, that with the sun’s love in the spring becomes the rose.”

Life is fleeting, with each breath we can choose to be present or choose to close our eyes. We can choose to be truly ourselves, speaking our truth, acknowledging our hearts or we can choose the confines of fear. We can choose to stay in what we know as comfortable or we can choose to live outside our limits. We can walk the wire or stay on the sidewalk. Life is made for living, in the moment, true to our soul’s calling of guiding us towards the light. Life is not meant to be lived in the dark, behind the walls we’ve built, under the blankets & veils of disillusion.

I wear my heart on my sleeve. I am not ashamed of this. I am the embodiment of trust & when I open up & let someone in, if even a little, I usually, maybe a bit naively, trust that they will meet me on this level of trust, openness & acceptance. More times than not I have been proven wrong. This bruises me & my delicate heart, but yet it has also been what has offered me some of the most growth & strength.

If for even a moment, fleeting as it may be, I can be the soft touch of a rose’s petal against one’s skin, to plant a seed of love within them, I will take that chance every time. For I do not dare to be the thorn that pricks & draws blood but I guess you cannot have the delicate & beautifully lush fragrant rose without it’s stem of thorns.

And just like another one of my favorites, Poison’s Every Rose Has Its Thorn (chorus)

"Every rose has its thorn
Just like every night has its dawn
Just like every cowboy sings his sad, sad song
Every rose has its thorn”

Who are we if not blooming our full authentic & true self? Who are we if not vulnerable to the elements, to the wild life around us? Who are we if not the light we are Divinely given? Who are we if not our fullest expression? 

We are limited. We are hiding. We are playing small. We are holding back.

Well, I don’t know about you…but I am done holding back. I am done playing small. I am done feeling like I’m not enough…because I know that I am enough. I am more than enough. I am the perfect amount…perfect in every way, shape & form. I am happy & proud of who I am. I am amazing & I am ready for the rest of the world to see me in this light. I’m ready to be truly seen, on every level, for who I am, for what I offer to the world, for the light I bring to this great green earth.

If you can’t see this & you want to judge me, call me names, or whatever & this makes you feel better about yourself, please by all means go ahead. I know I am unique. I know I am deep. I know that I am multi-faceted & full of so much Love that I am willing to share openly. In this moment I am owning my worth. I know I am worth every once of what you’re willing to put in. I am worth every penny you’ve got. I am worth your time & I am worth your effort. I am investing 100% of myself…for more depth, for more connection, for more Love, for more light, for more joy, for more fulfillment. I am done with superficiality, I am done with surface value. If you want to be a part of my life, if you want my time, then you need to invest a little more into yourself & into me. I’m done with 50/50. I want it all or nothing. 100/100…whole to whole. I have a ton to offer the world! I’m talented, I’m beautiful, I’m giving & kind, I’m real, I’m funny, I’m thoughtful & I’m gentle. I’m also the opposite of all these things, but I work hard on being the best version of myself that I can be. This is me going all in. This is me speaking my truth. This is all of me for better or worse. If this scares you, then you’re scared of being real. If this turns you off, then we’re not vibing on the same level. If this triggers you, see this as a reflection of you needing to own your worth & stop judging me for owning mine. I can be a bitch, I can be a whore, I can be the Madonna & the Saint, I can be the perfect wife, the scared little girl & I can be the nurturer. I am the High Priestess, The Goddess, The Mother, The Sister & The Daughter. I am The Empress & The Queen & I deserve all that I want & all that I am working for.

My life hasn’t been cookie-cutter by any means, I have been paving my own path for a long time & dancing to the beat of my own drum. For this I am grateful. I have everything I need & everything I desire is already mine. I am happy & full of gratitude for this life I’ve been gifted & for the path my soul has chosen.

Will you join me in truth, in the depths, & in this plot of earth? Will you feed & nurture these seeds that I have planted so that in the spring we can be in full bloom? I am here, open & trusting that you’ll see me & my worth & that you’ll join me in the sun’s light to nurture, grow & bloom to fullness because we are all in this together. This world is a collective. We are connected you & I, whether we know one another or not; whether we talk every day or not. the Light within me acknowledges & sees the light within you. You are as perfect as this rose that I’m admiring & I see you.

Love & Light my Beautiful Roses! May we meet in Full Bloom!

Photo: (one of the prettiest & sweetest smelling roses from my lil’ Aussie…thanks Stu) 

This life of  mine, I am so so so so grateful for!!!! Two weeks ago I gave up the controls or believing I had any real control in my life. I let go of the reigns & asked Spirit, The Divine, God to take the lead. Every morning I ask, “What would you have me do today? Where would you have me go? What would you have me say? & To whom?
From last July during my vacation out here the main theme of the two weeks I was away was TRUST. My whole time since then, the past year & 3 months have all led back to this one theme, TRUST. So two weeks ago I let go & leaned fully in…to TRUST in what Spirit is bringing me. I continue to do my work, everyday…somedays it’s more than others, but everyday doing something toward my dream. My mind continues to doubt & worry & I’ve gotten really clear about hearing these stories start to spin up in my head. I’ve gotten good at stopping them before they spin too far out of control or I spend too much time in them. I say thank you to my mind & I take a breath, I ground the energy they’ve created within me & I become present in what I’m doing.
These past to weeks have been a roller coaster ride! My emotions, my body, my mind have been out of sorts releasing what no longer serves me in big ways. I’ve gone through self doubt, through major worry, through feeling like I’m not enough & to dealing with my ego & vanity in big ways. So much shit from my past has surfaced…stuff from being a little girl, to past relationships just keeps coming up out of the woodwork. I’m grateful for all of it because it’s allowing me to work through it all so that I can move forward anew. I hit some low lows, my lowest low to date & have teetered on the edge of doubt, worry & shame in a big way in the past few days. But each time I quiet my mind & ask for guidance, I let go & lean in to my FAITH, in to that TRUST once again. My face is healing, my light & energy are back & today I was über productive! I am SOOOOOO grateful for ALLLL of it!!!! I keep being tested, I can see this in a big way & I’m usually the one who’ll say, “Never give up on your dreams because you never know how close you really are.” But lately my faith has been tested over & over & yesterday I reached a breaking point of sorts where I was almost ready to throw in the towel because it’s just not what I thought it’d be, I’m not where I thought, want or need to be in my business & my faith in myself was hanging on by a thread. Luckily Spirit aligned a phone call that helped me vocalize this to get it out of my head. My friend Marc brought me a little clarity through this conversation. Then I spent some time with my friend Steve, & his sincere thoughtfulness & gratitude for who I am & what I offered him helped me see a little more clearly how askew my perception of ‘where I’m at in life’ had gotten.
I know we all go through these peaks & valleys, so is life, always changing, always in flux. Just like our breath or our heart beat, we contract & expand. I feel as though I’ve been in this contraction & expansion so much lately it’s not even funny…as I’ve heard & know many other’s are experiencing major life changes & growth of their own at this time too, so I know I’m not alone. These contractions get tighter & tighter but these expansions also get bigger & bigger…which is exciting. 
So here I am, working on not doing, pushing or trying anymore. I’m doing my best to just BE in my flow of what feels right, of where Spirit is moving me. I’m TRUSTING in the process, in the work, in what’s coming up, in myself, in my dream & I’m waiting to feel the net. I saw it appear today, but have yet to feel that soft landing when you know you’re safe. So I’m still in the free fall (if you will) of not knowing what’s coming next. It’s exciting, but it’s also nerve-racking. I’m open & welcome to the unexpected, to miracles & to synchronicity. I fully believe & TRUST in Spirit & I know everything is going to be just fine. 
So it is written. So it is done.
May Love & Light find you on you journey wherever you may be on your path & may you too be guided by Spirit into the warm embrace of LOVE & TRUST.

This life of  mine, I am so so so so grateful for!!!! Two weeks ago I gave up the controls or believing I had any real control in my life. I let go of the reigns & asked Spirit, The Divine, God to take the lead. Every morning I ask, “What would you have me do today? Where would you have me go? What would you have me say? & To whom?

From last July during my vacation out here the main theme of the two weeks I was away was TRUST. My whole time since then, the past year & 3 months have all led back to this one theme, TRUST. So two weeks ago I let go & leaned fully in…to TRUST in what Spirit is bringing me. I continue to do my work, everyday…somedays it’s more than others, but everyday doing something toward my dream. My mind continues to doubt & worry & I’ve gotten really clear about hearing these stories start to spin up in my head. I’ve gotten good at stopping them before they spin too far out of control or I spend too much time in them. I say thank you to my mind & I take a breath, I ground the energy they’ve created within me & I become present in what I’m doing.

These past to weeks have been a roller coaster ride! My emotions, my body, my mind have been out of sorts releasing what no longer serves me in big ways. I’ve gone through self doubt, through major worry, through feeling like I’m not enough & to dealing with my ego & vanity in big ways. So much shit from my past has surfaced…stuff from being a little girl, to past relationships just keeps coming up out of the woodwork. I’m grateful for all of it because it’s allowing me to work through it all so that I can move forward anew. I hit some low lows, my lowest low to date & have teetered on the edge of doubt, worry & shame in a big way in the past few days. But each time I quiet my mind & ask for guidance, I let go & lean in to my FAITH, in to that TRUST once again. My face is healing, my light & energy are back & today I was über productive! I am SOOOOOO grateful for ALLLL of it!!!! I keep being tested, I can see this in a big way & I’m usually the one who’ll say, “Never give up on your dreams because you never know how close you really are.” But lately my faith has been tested over & over & yesterday I reached a breaking point of sorts where I was almost ready to throw in the towel because it’s just not what I thought it’d be, I’m not where I thought, want or need to be in my business & my faith in myself was hanging on by a thread. Luckily Spirit aligned a phone call that helped me vocalize this to get it out of my head. My friend Marc brought me a little clarity through this conversation. Then I spent some time with my friend Steve, & his sincere thoughtfulness & gratitude for who I am & what I offered him helped me see a little more clearly how askew my perception of ‘where I’m at in life’ had gotten.

I know we all go through these peaks & valleys, so is life, always changing, always in flux. Just like our breath or our heart beat, we contract & expand. I feel as though I’ve been in this contraction & expansion so much lately it’s not even funny…as I’ve heard & know many other’s are experiencing major life changes & growth of their own at this time too, so I know I’m not alone. These contractions get tighter & tighter but these expansions also get bigger & bigger…which is exciting. 

So here I am, working on not doing, pushing or trying anymore. I’m doing my best to just BE in my flow of what feels right, of where Spirit is moving me. I’m TRUSTING in the process, in the work, in what’s coming up, in myself, in my dream & I’m waiting to feel the net. I saw it appear today, but have yet to feel that soft landing when you know you’re safe. So I’m still in the free fall (if you will) of not knowing what’s coming next. It’s exciting, but it’s also nerve-racking. I’m open & welcome to the unexpected, to miracles & to synchronicity. I fully believe & TRUST in Spirit & I know everything is going to be just fine. 

So it is written. So it is done.

May Love & Light find you on you journey wherever you may be on your path & may you too be guided by Spirit into the warm embrace of LOVE & TRUST.

Wow! What a week and a half it’s been!!! So glad to be feeling this energy shift. Coming from a Full Moon with a Lunar Eclipse, into Mercury Retro & then into my own manifestations….I’m not even sure where to begin.
Last week started with super vivid & realistic dreams where most of them involved water, one involved weathering a storm & involved lots of swimming…people from my past were coming up & I was visited by 3 old boyfriends all in a matter of 2 nights.
Then last Thursday some stuff got stirred up for me. All of a sudden I went from being on top of the world to feeling like a little girl. A little girl that wasn’t being noticed, that wasn’t being acknowledged, that wasn’t being heard or seen. I felt like I was all of a sudden abandoned & alone. I felt sad & unloved. I felt unworthy & ashamed. Every day that passed, more & more stuff came up. It was like I had opened the flood gates & didn’t know how to shut it…so it kept coming.
Last Friday I was in urgent care for something spreading on my face which turned out to be impetigo. For anyone who knows what this is or has ever suffered from it, I feel so deeply for you. It scared the living daylights out of me! & it has been a nightmare!!!!
By Wednesday I was in the deepest depression I have ever been in. I’ve been in funks & this was the one that took the cake for me. I woke up & just started crying. I cried all day long. I slept & ate & cried. All I wanted, was to be in my mom’s company. I talked to her over the phone & cried first thing in the morning. I felt bad, I looked bad, I was sad & all the light in me had gone out. I din’t know who I was in this moment. For those of you who know me know I don’t suffer from depression & am usually super positive & light. But this was my lowest low for sure. Luckily, by 8pm Spirit stepped in & lightened me a little by sending a friend over who wanted to come by to say farewell & stayed with me. We laughed & it really helped to lighten my mood. The next morning I slept like I had never slept before. I felt a little better, but not much. So I sat in it. I sat in my funk, feeling each & every thing. For 2 days, I sat in my shit & worked through it. 
I’m a big believer in that ‘we’ are the co-creators of our reality. So I know that I created this infection to appear. Why it came on my face…well I didn’t ask for that, but…you get the picture. I’m taking responsibility for my part in it. I know that I had been asking Spirit to be really seen by others, for the courage to finally, once & for all, to release what no longer serves me & to be more trusting in what was showing up. Well…..ask & you shall receive.
Here I was sitting in the midst of what I had asked for. All this stuff that was coming up from me being a little girl & not being recognized, or acknowledged, my fear of abandonment, my fears of not being enough, it was all showing up. Plus there was so much more. Now there was vanity & my ego I was being dealt to work with too. I do my best to Love myself & to be grateful for what I have…but boy has this taken it to a whole other level.
This experience although painful, embarrassing & frightening, has ultimately brought me so much! Through this week and a half I have surrendered fully to Spirit. I have cried more, prayed more, believed more & found the Healing Codes by Dr. Alex Loyd. I have come to realize that I AM PERFECT just the way I am in every way, shape & form because I am a Divine Creation. I have gotten clear about Uni-versal Law. I know that I don’t know & I am just fine with that. I have found true repose, rest. I cleared & cleaned out my mind, my body & my spirit along with my apartment. It’s like everything got reset.
When shifting paradigms and stepping into a new way of living, of doing things, into that new way of life, one must go through those points of discomfort of being uneasy to grow & learn…to let go of & be reborn anew.  That was this week & a half for me. I needed to clear up this stuff from my past that has been lingering & shut away out of sight for way too long. I needed this, to be taken out at the knees if you will, to shake me up enough to work through what I needed to work through so that I could move forward with more ease & less baggage into the life of my dreams. I already feel as though I’m living it, but it was time to up the ante. This is what I had been waiting for to take me to the next phase. I too am a big believer in everything happens in Divine Timing & for a reason…& everything that is happening is happening FOR you & your greater good. So although I’d like to play the martyr & say why me…I know that it’s all happening as it should & for my greater good. And what doesn’t kill me, makes me stronger.
So for this experience, this past week and a half I am grateful. From vivid & intense dreams during the full moon, to sifting through my own sediment of my past, to an infection, to healing, to trusting, to letting go, to resting & taking care of, to cleaning, to clear communication & then it all comes back to Loving. Loving yourself, your dreams, your worth. Loving who you are unapologetically. It doesn’t matter the hand you’ve been dealt, what matters is that you know that the Uni-verse is dealing what you’ve asked for…so you can change it at any moment. You can fold or you can be hit again…your choice. Whichever choice you make, make sure you’re choosing Love first.

Wow! What a week and a half it’s been!!! So glad to be feeling this energy shift. Coming from a Full Moon with a Lunar Eclipse, into Mercury Retro & then into my own manifestations….I’m not even sure where to begin.

Last week started with super vivid & realistic dreams where most of them involved water, one involved weathering a storm & involved lots of swimming…people from my past were coming up & I was visited by 3 old boyfriends all in a matter of 2 nights.

Then last Thursday some stuff got stirred up for me. All of a sudden I went from being on top of the world to feeling like a little girl. A little girl that wasn’t being noticed, that wasn’t being acknowledged, that wasn’t being heard or seen. I felt like I was all of a sudden abandoned & alone. I felt sad & unloved. I felt unworthy & ashamed. Every day that passed, more & more stuff came up. It was like I had opened the flood gates & didn’t know how to shut it…so it kept coming.

Last Friday I was in urgent care for something spreading on my face which turned out to be impetigo. For anyone who knows what this is or has ever suffered from it, I feel so deeply for you. It scared the living daylights out of me! & it has been a nightmare!!!!

By Wednesday I was in the deepest depression I have ever been in. I’ve been in funks & this was the one that took the cake for me. I woke up & just started crying. I cried all day long. I slept & ate & cried. All I wanted, was to be in my mom’s company. I talked to her over the phone & cried first thing in the morning. I felt bad, I looked bad, I was sad & all the light in me had gone out. I din’t know who I was in this moment. For those of you who know me know I don’t suffer from depression & am usually super positive & light. But this was my lowest low for sure. Luckily, by 8pm Spirit stepped in & lightened me a little by sending a friend over who wanted to come by to say farewell & stayed with me. We laughed & it really helped to lighten my mood. The next morning I slept like I had never slept before. I felt a little better, but not much. So I sat in it. I sat in my funk, feeling each & every thing. For 2 days, I sat in my shit & worked through it. 

I’m a big believer in that ‘we’ are the co-creators of our reality. So I know that I created this infection to appear. Why it came on my face…well I didn’t ask for that, but…you get the picture. I’m taking responsibility for my part in it. I know that I had been asking Spirit to be really seen by others, for the courage to finally, once & for all, to release what no longer serves me & to be more trusting in what was showing up. Well…..ask & you shall receive.

Here I was sitting in the midst of what I had asked for. All this stuff that was coming up from me being a little girl & not being recognized, or acknowledged, my fear of abandonment, my fears of not being enough, it was all showing up. Plus there was so much more. Now there was vanity & my ego I was being dealt to work with too. I do my best to Love myself & to be grateful for what I have…but boy has this taken it to a whole other level.

This experience although painful, embarrassing & frightening, has ultimately brought me so much! Through this week and a half I have surrendered fully to Spirit. I have cried more, prayed more, believed more & found the Healing Codes by Dr. Alex Loyd. I have come to realize that I AM PERFECT just the way I am in every way, shape & form because I am a Divine Creation. I have gotten clear about Uni-versal Law. I know that I don’t know & I am just fine with that. I have found true repose, rest. I cleared & cleaned out my mind, my body & my spirit along with my apartment. It’s like everything got reset.

When shifting paradigms and stepping into a new way of living, of doing things, into that new way of life, one must go through those points of discomfort of being uneasy to grow & learn…to let go of & be reborn anew.  That was this week & a half for me. I needed to clear up this stuff from my past that has been lingering & shut away out of sight for way too long. I needed this, to be taken out at the knees if you will, to shake me up enough to work through what I needed to work through so that I could move forward with more ease & less baggage into the life of my dreams. I already feel as though I’m living it, but it was time to up the ante. This is what I had been waiting for to take me to the next phase. I too am a big believer in everything happens in Divine Timing & for a reason…& everything that is happening is happening FOR you & your greater good. So although I’d like to play the martyr & say why me…I know that it’s all happening as it should & for my greater good. And what doesn’t kill me, makes me stronger.

So for this experience, this past week and a half I am grateful. From vivid & intense dreams during the full moon, to sifting through my own sediment of my past, to an infection, to healing, to trusting, to letting go, to resting & taking care of, to cleaning, to clear communication & then it all comes back to Loving. Loving yourself, your dreams, your worth. Loving who you are unapologetically. It doesn’t matter the hand you’ve been dealt, what matters is that you know that the Uni-verse is dealing what you’ve asked for…so you can change it at any moment. You can fold or you can be hit again…your choice. Whichever choice you make, make sure you’re choosing Love first.

Reblogged from shoopshoopdelangalanga
I’m not ready for winter…but the weather is getting a bit cooler, the layers are starting to be pulled out of the closet & the water’s cooling down. I’m looking forward to the mid & high 70’s this coming week as it’s been a bit cooler the past week. As fall sets in this has definitely been a time of letting things “fall” away for me. Letting go, clearing out, & moving forward. 
Clearing out what no longer works, old habits, old ways of thinking, etc…letting go of expectations & attachments & moving forward while staying present in each moment with each person. It has been an incredible weekend of connection & has felt so free to not expect anything from anyone…to just meet each other where we are, in this moment. 
There’s lots of fun to be had, lots of connections to be made, lots of Love to be shared & lots of memories to create!!! Although I may not be ready for it to get cooler, I am ready for what the future holds as I believe amazing opportunities, experiences & manifestations are about to occur!!! It’s going to be an amazing fall, an incredible winter & I’m feeling pretty damn good about this last quarter of the year.
To shifting into the next phase! I LOVE YOU because you’re You!!!! 

I’m not ready for winter…but the weather is getting a bit cooler, the layers are starting to be pulled out of the closet & the water’s cooling down. I’m looking forward to the mid & high 70’s this coming week as it’s been a bit cooler the past week. As fall sets in this has definitely been a time of letting things “fall” away for me. Letting go, clearing out, & moving forward. 

Clearing out what no longer works, old habits, old ways of thinking, etc…letting go of expectations & attachments & moving forward while staying present in each moment with each person. It has been an incredible weekend of connection & has felt so free to not expect anything from anyone…to just meet each other where we are, in this moment. 

There’s lots of fun to be had, lots of connections to be made, lots of Love to be shared & lots of memories to create!!! Although I may not be ready for it to get cooler, I am ready for what the future holds as I believe amazing opportunities, experiences & manifestations are about to occur!!! It’s going to be an amazing fall, an incredible winter & I’m feeling pretty damn good about this last quarter of the year.

To shifting into the next phase! I LOVE YOU because you’re You!!!! 

(Source: shoopshoopdelangalanga, via somethingwell)

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I loved this so mich i had to share it! 'Here is your Friday Story:This has to be one of the best messages i have received in a long time because when you sit and think about it….It is so true…!!Law of the Garbage TruckOne day I hopped in a taxi and we took off for the airport. We were driving in the right lane when suddenly a black car jumped out of a parking space right in front of us.My taxi driver slammed on his brakes, skidded, and missed the other car by just inches! The driver of the other car whipped his head around and started yelling at us.My taxi driver just smiled and waved at the guy. And I mean, he was really friendly. So I asked, ‘Why did you just do that? This guy could almost have ruined your car and sent us to the hospital!’This is when my taxi driver taught me what I now call, ‘The Law of the Garbage Truck.’He explained that many people are like garbage trucks. They run around full of garbage, full of frustration, full of anger, and full of disappointment. As their garbage piles up, they need a place to dump it and sometimes they’ll dump it on you. Don’t take it personally.Just smile, wave, wish them well, and move on.Don’t take their garbage and spread it to other people at work, at home, or on the streets.The bottom line is that successful people do not let garbage trucks take over their day.Life’s too short to wake up in the morning with regrets,So … Love the people who treat you right. Pray for the ones who don’t.Life is ten percent what you make it and ninety percent how you take it!Have a garbage-free Life !’

I loved this so mich i had to share it!
'Here is your Friday Story:


This has to be one of the best messages i have received in a long time because when you sit and think about it….

It is so true…!!

Law of the Garbage Truck

One day I hopped in a taxi and we took off for the airport. We were driving in the right lane when suddenly a black car jumped out of a parking space right in front of us.

My taxi driver slammed on his brakes, skidded, and missed the other car by just inches! The driver of the other car whipped his head around and started yelling at us.

My taxi driver just smiled and waved at the guy. And I mean, he was really friendly. So I asked, ‘Why did you just do that? This guy could almost have ruined your car and sent us to the hospital!’

This is when my taxi driver taught me what I now call, ‘The Law of the Garbage Truck.’

He explained that many people are like garbage trucks. They run around full of garbage, full of frustration, full of anger, and full of disappointment. As their garbage piles up, they need a place to dump it and sometimes they’ll dump it on you. Don’t take it personally.Just smile, wave, wish them well, and move on.

Don’t take their garbage and spread it to other people at work, at home, or on the streets.

The bottom line is that successful people do not let garbage trucks take over their day.

Life’s too short to wake up in the morning with regrets,

So … Love the people who treat you right. Pray for the ones who don’t.

Life is ten percent what you make it and ninety percent how you take it!

Have a garbage-free Life !’

(Source: reblololo, via somethingwell)